This post is part of Eat, Drink and Merry Friday Carnival. See original post for more details of what this entails. We are talking about Food and Spirituality and next week, we’ll start discussion based on the book Women Food and God: An Unexpected Path to Almost Everything I hope you can join us! And for those of you who shared your story last week, thank you so very much! You’re all beautiful!
I don’t feel like writing tonight. I don’t feel like writing about how crappy I felt the last few hours of the day when my husband had to work late once more and all I wanted to do was escape. After having to care for another all day long, I just wanted…I just wanted…Something. Exactly what? I’m not sure. So I reach for a cookie. A carrot cookie. Healthy and homemade, but still. A cookie.
Yes, it’s true that I sometimes eat to soothe and that I sometimes eat to mask a different kind of hunger I try hard to ignore. I’m really tired of not knowing what it is that I am hungry for. And becoming a mother, and a stay-at-home at that, has magnified it so much more than before.
Hunger For Something Else
Below is an excerpt from an article by Geneen Roth on the Huffington Post:
We don’t want to eat hot fudge sundaes as much as we want our lives to be hot fudge sundaes. We want to come home to ourselves. We want to know wonder and mystery and possibility; and if instead, we’ve given up on ourselves, if we’ve vacated our longings, if we’ve left possibility behind, we will feel an emptiness we can’t name. We will feel as if something is missing because something is missing–the connection to the source of all sweetness, all love, all power, all peace, all joy, all stillness. Since we had it once–we were born with and as it–it can’t help but haunt us. It’s as if our cells remember that home is a resplendent and jeweled palace but we’ve been living as beggars for so long that we are no longer certain if the palace was a dream. And if it was a dream, then at least we can eat the memory of it.
Yes. Totally. To eat the memory of Something We Once Had. She identifies it as “the connection to the Source,” of basically everything that is Good. Something we were Made For. She goes on to say:
During the first few bites, and before we get dazed by overeating, everything we want is possible. Everything we’ve lost is here now. And so we settle for the concrete version of our lost selves in the form of food. And once food has become synonymous with goodness or love or fulfillment, you cannot help but choose it, no matter how high the stakes are. No matter if your doctor tells you that you won’t live another month at this weight. Because when you are lost, when you are homeless, when you’ve spent years separated from who you are, threats of failed hearts or joint pressure don’t move you. Dying does not frighten those who are already half-dead.
A Different Kind of Hunger = A Spiritual Kind of Hunger
Are you buying this? Does anything resonate with you? Are you willing to submit to the possibility that this mindless eating is at its root a spiritual problem? That this emptiness that you cannot name is at its core a spiritual issue? That it’s was never about Willpower or Discipline but about trying to find our way back Home somehow, to the Source of all our True Longing?
Then Eat, Drink and Be Merry Fridays is for you. Will you consider joining us here on Fridays to explore this Hunger of Different Kind, together? We’ll be sharing our stories and reading Women Food and God: An Unexpected Path to Almost Everything together starting next week, October 8. All you need to do is to buy the book or get it from your local library. Read one chapter a week or so and join us here.
Share Your Story
This is the first time ever that I’m going to host a Carnival here. And I really don’t care about quantity of link-ups here. I am not doing this for the number of links I’m going to get back on my blog. I just really want a place where Others in the Same Journey can connect and share. So this is your Space below. If you want to write something on your blog about your personal journey in regards to Food and Spirituality, I’d be honored if you linked here. Let’s make a Sacred Circle of some sort. And it starts with you.
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