I’ve been wanting to blog here again like, forever and for some reason, couldn’t get myself to write a single.damn.thing. Sure, I’ve been a bit preoccupied with Nia and most recently, essential oils and doTerra (which have been rocking my world!) but I want to share with you today the real honest-to-goodness reason why I’ve been stuck. Because I think it might actually cheer you up if you happen to be feeling any negative feelings about your domestic life.
It’s because our house has been a tad bit more chaotic than what I’m willing to let on.
I cursed myself when I named this blog A Nourishing Home because every time I feel like I am off the mark and our house is showing the least bit not-so-nourishing signs, I readily call myself a fraud and hide.
I must say that it’s not so easy trying to rock this un-schooling life along with my entrepreneurial aspirations AND keep everyone in the family healthy and nourished, myself included.
It’s not that I don’t have enough time or energy.
It’s that old monsters come out and try to frighten the hell out of me. That or just get me to buy into beliefs and negative thoughts that devalue what I do here at home. Or inflate my ego while working on my business . Or just altogether crush any confidence I have that I can do this, gosh damn it.
Or the worst, they shame me into ignoring my struggles.
My message here on this blog is that Motherhood doesn’t have to be a struggle. And it’s true. Life doesn’t have to be a struggle. Yet we all struggle, despite the fact that we don’t have to. We are designed for an Abundant Life, and yet many of us live in scarcity everyday. We are designed for Greatness, and yet many of us settle for a life on autopilot. We are designed for Relationships, and yet many of us struggle to deeply connect with others.
The real problem is that we dream of the Ideal we are designed for without taking time to shine the light on our reality. We make vision boards and affirmations without taking a moment to NAME and ACKNOWLEDGE the habits that we feel ashamed about.
They say what we resist persists and without identifying not just the habits but more importantly the unconscious beliefs we have that don’t serve our highest purpose (that we don’t have enough ______ or what we don’t really belong or that we are not good enough etc), we doom ourselves.
And we do silly things like start a million blog posts and never hit publish.ever. again.
The truth is, it’s ok to struggle.
IT’S OK TO STRUGGLE.
And often, just the mere admission that you are SETS YOU FREE.
And poof, just like that, you hit the publish button and you are back on the game.
Are you struggling with anything? Do you find it hard to admit when and what you struggle with? Vulnerability is the new black, mama. Spill it and watch it ignite your road to liberation.